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| Tuesday, January 5th, 2010 | | 8:28 am |
Disclaimer
Do not read this journal if you are under the age of majority in your area, whether it be 18 or 21. Seriously, don't do it. I wouldn't do well in prison and don't relish the thought of being sued. Parents, do not whine to me if your child reads this journal after I just told them not to - that's what the disclaimer is for and you should be paying closer attention to what they're looking at on the internet. It's not my job to babysit your children. If I have to (i.e., the first time I get burned) I'll friends-lock this, make people submit age statements, etc. For now, though, no one knows that it's here. Do not read this journal if you are offended by discussions of the sex industry including prostitution, strip clubs and porn. This journal may also delve into issues such as covert incest and the morality of my field. This journal does not condone any illegal activity and any discussion therein of such activity may be taken as hypothetical, a flight of fancy, a work of fiction...you get the idea. This is my place to vent. Period. Whether or not the venting is about things that actually happened is up to the interpretation of the reader. Just remember that old saying - truth is stranger than fiction. Do not comment or e-mail me if you wish to preach - I'm an atheist, so I'm not afraid of hell. Again, this is for me and me alone. That all being said, if you would like to read about the seedier side of human nature where both men and women are painted in flattering and unflattering lights, do come in. I welcome insights from others who have been there or even outside opinions so long as they are given in a respectful manner. If you want to friend me - have at, no need to ask first! Truthfully, I'm always amazed when someone wants to read *anything* that I write. :) However, I will note that I will not friend you back if your journal is blank - it seems kind of unfair. If you feel that I should friend you anyway, simply drop a comment telling me why and I'll probably do so. :) Sex workers of the world unite! Well, they did it in San Francisco... | | Saturday, June 9th, 2007 | | 3:20 am |
Epiphanies on the Road to Oz
I haven't posted anything of significance lately because honestly, I haven't felt like participating much. Still, I did have an epiphany about work a few weeks ago that I thought might be helpful to those who are experiencing "burnout". When I was younger, working at office jobs, I missed work due to an illness I call "work-itis". It's where you hate your job for one reason or another and practically have a panic attack at the thought of going in. I'd get this all the time with dancing and assume that I had just started to "burn out" on it. Guess what? I finally realized, I'm not burnt out, I'm just lazy. ( Read more... ) Current Mood:  awakeCurrent Music: Hi-ho, Hi-ho | | Wednesday, April 11th, 2007 | | 1:46 am |
And Now For Something Completely Different...
Got the results of my HIV test about five minutes ago, which gave me the impetus to log in to this journal. I could keep you guessing, but they were negative. As were Chlamydia and Gonorrhea. I had to get tested so that I could do a girl/girl video shoot next week. (Yes, I do adult modeling as well, though I really don't consider that to be much of a career, since I've never really pursued it as such.) I was pretty sure that I was negative already - I've given blood a couple of times and they'll call and tell you if you're positive. Still, however "pretty sure" I was, it's nice to be sure. I even got a discounted rate on the test, thanks to an adult industry hookup. How's life been for me otherwise? I've been pretty depressed, honestly. Plus, I moved into a new place, which is always a source of losing all of one's free time. I've been working a lot, dancing, mostly, with only one new client in the last three months. I was supposed to meet up with a couple on Thursday, but they just canceled, so... bummer. I've been mentally writing more "Free Advice to New Dancers" over the last few weeks of work, but I still don't have much time to sit down and do it. Looks like this is just another, "Hey, I'm still alive," post. Ah well. Hope everyone on my f-list is well. Take care, people! Current Mood:  okay | | 1:45 am |
For my first post in two months...
| What color are you? Your Result: Purple You are purple! You are girly but with a slight rocker edge. You are usually cheerful but you have a dark side. No one knows who you're going to be fromone day to the next. But you love to keep them guessing. | | Yellow | | | Pink | | | Blue | | | Black | | | Red | | | White | | | Green | | What color are you?
Take More Quizzes |
Current Mood: apathetic | | Monday, February 5th, 2007 | | 2:02 am |
Surprise! I'm not dead!
I've just been having a very stressful few weeks. Insomnia sucks. Mom in the hospital due to breakdown, pneumonia and aneurysm really sucks. Not being able to visit because I have no free cash due to a HUGE move across town going on really, really sucks. (I am 2000 miles from my mother at this moment. I missed her gall bladder surgery last year as well.) ( Read more... ) Current Mood:  depressed | | 1:45 am |
| | Sunday, January 21st, 2007 | | 12:02 am |
PMS
Unlike many women who say they get PMS when they are actually menstruating, I get it several days before I start and only stop having it when my period starts. Hence, "P".M.S. If you call it PMS when you are actually on your period, then it's NOT PMS, dumbass! The "P" stands for "Pre"! The shitty way you feel while you are menstrating could be more accurately described as, "on your period". ( Read more... ) Current Mood: What the fuck do you think?Current Music: "The Flower of Carnage", Meiko Kaji | | Wednesday, January 17th, 2007 | | 6:22 am |
Cell Phone Babies
Hubby and I are both old enough to remember when not everyone had a cell phone (not to mention the start of VCR's, video games, MTV, the internet, DVD's...sigh). Heck, until I was in junior high, not only was the phone *wired into the wall*, and I didn't have one in my bedroom. If I wanted to talk on the phone, I went down to the kitchen and was tied to the long-ass cord. As a result, we often find ourselves wanting to bitch-slap people who have become so attached to them that they are incapable of going ten seconds without answering the phone, or texting, or calling someone else. If I need to make a call and I'm in a restaurant, usually I'll leave the table to do it because I feel it's rude to the waiter (and the people I'm with) to be on a phone when they come up, not to mention rude to everyone else around you who is trying to enjoy their meal (I won't even get started on assholes who bring crying babies - that's another rant altogether). ( Read more... ) Current Mood:  annoyed | | 5:21 am |
Heelys
It's funny - you know how something catches your eye and you think to yourself, "Wow, that's the dumbest thing ever?" Well, that's how I feel about sneakers with wheels or "heelys". I meant to mention them in my post about stupidity, as they were a pivotal reason I was writing the post at all, but when I was actually writing the post, I couldn't think of them. Isn't that always the way? In any case, for those of you who haven't seen them, basically it's a sneaker with a wheel in each heel. Buying these for your kid is like saying, "Well, you haven't had a broken arm yet - let's help that along." Seriously - if you buy these, you might as well just set aside the $2000 for an E.R. visit. ( Read more... ) Current Mood: cynical | | Tuesday, January 16th, 2007 | | 1:19 pm |
One Word Survey!
Ganked from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dubbage42. 1. Where is your cell phone?: purse 2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?: husband 3. Your hair?: straight 4. Your mother?: schizophrenic 5. Your father?: Dumb 6. Your favorite item?: G4 7. Your dream last night?: Trekker 8. Your favorite drink?: Milk 9. Your dream car?: Ferrari 10. The room you are in?: Computer 11. Your ex?: Bittersweet 12. Your fear?: Work 13. 10 years from now?: There 14. Who did you hang out with last night?: Ex-roommate 15. What you're not?: Energetic 16. Muffins?: Good 17: One of your wish list items?: Couch 18: Time?: Passing 19. The last thing you did?: Post 20. What are you wearing?: Bathrobe 22. Your favorite book?: Firestarter 23. The last thing you ate?: Cheez-it's 24. Your life?: Good 25. Your mood?: Satisfied 26. Your friends?: Absent 27. What are you thinking about right now?: Life 28. Your car?: Volkswagon 29. What are you doing at the moment?: Typing 30. Your summer?: Hot 31. Your relationship status?: Wonderful! 32. What is on your tv?: Colbert 33. When is the last time you laughed?: Yesterday 34. Last time you cried?: unknown 35. School?: Ugh Current Mood: blah | | 1:17 pm |
| | Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 | | 10:03 pm |
What. The. Fuck.
I just got this e-mail through my escorting site: Hi, I was proposing meeting but it occurred to me,are you going to show me your driving license so I know exactly who you are????????????? Instead of some made up name etc.......M. I've thought of lots of interesting ways to answer it, starting with, "You're a moron", and ending with, "What planet are you from and is the weather nice there?" In the end, I've decided to just not respond at all. People like this make my blood boil, but telling me what I think of him would do nothing except encourage him. I just hope that no escort out there is dumb enough to go with this loser. Someone out there is thinking that this is a reasonable request. This person does not live in the real world and I hope that the weather is nice in Never-Never Land this time of year. Thus proving the point I made in my last post. Geez, I thought it would take at least 24 hours before I had another example and here this fuckstick goes and gives me one. Current Mood: angry | | 7:37 pm |
People Are Stupid
I thought I'd start the new year off right, with a sweeping generalization. Someone, who shall remain nameless (*cough, cough*), said that the above statement is asinine. For the record, the dictionary definition of asinine is as follows: asinine: 1. foolish, unintelligent, or silly; stupid: It is surprising that supposedly intelligent people can make such asinine statements. 2. of or like an ass: asinine obstinacy; asinine features. Also for the record, the dictionary defines stupid in this way: stupid: 1. lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mind; dull. 2. characterized by or proceeding from mental dullness; foolish; senseless: a stupid question. 3. tediously dull, esp. due to lack of meaning or sense; inane; pointless: a stupid party. 4. annoying or irritating; troublesome: Turn off that stupid radio. 5. in a state of stupor; stupefied: stupid from fatigue. 6. Slang. excellent; terrific. –noun 7. Informal. a stupid person. Words and what they mean are very important. They are the only means that the human race has to communicate thought. Well, I suppose that bashing someone in the head with a baseball bat also communicates thought, but not necessarily as clearly as a few succinct words could have. WARNING: If you ignore my disclaimer and whine to me after reading this entry, which is filled with a lot of things that many people could find offensive, then you are the person about whom this entry was written. ( Read more... ) Current Mood: blah | | 5:16 pm |
This Can't Be Right...
There's someone with my name at the drugstore I go to - she just has a different middle initial. Hmmm. Current Mood:  contemplative | | Friday, December 15th, 2006 | | 12:44 am |
The End of Guilt
For those who read my last post, you may remember that I sometimes feel guilty about lying to the guys I deal with. From today forward, I'm done with that emotion. A lovely man with the rather unlikely name of "Prince" who was from somewhere across the pond - well, he told me London originally, but now he lives in (why am I not surprised) France. ( Read more... ) Current Music: "I'm An Asshole", Denis Leary | | Thursday, November 30th, 2006 | | 3:04 am |
Pretty Woman
I just watched the end of this on cable - I've seen it before, of course - and found it made me rather melancholy. I'd already been feeling pretty down, but something about this movie makes feel sad and angry as well as giving me a bit of bittersweet as well. Warning! Long rant ahead. Reminder - my disclaimer applies. ( Read more... ) Current Mood: gloomy | | Monday, November 20th, 2006 | | 5:11 am |
Ugh
Went to work at the club last night and made about enough for the electric bill. I'm not exactly *hurting* for money right now thanks to last month, but I haven't really worked since I saw the last guy. I don't know what it is, but it's really, really hard for me to get motivated to get off my ass and work if I'm NOT hurting. Which really sucks because I can never save up for anything or get ahead. Sigh. I think I'm going to try a different shift - the one I'm working now leaves my sleep schedule entirely too fucked. Plus, as I've been getting older, I seem to do better with a smaller crowd - maybe it's because I feel like I can spend more time with them? ( Read more... ) Current Mood: aggravated | | Saturday, November 18th, 2006 | | 7:34 am |
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Tarot Card
Too bad I don't believe in it, but hey, it's fun - if only I could have been the Fool. Ah, well! ( Read more... ) Current Mood:  artistic | | Friday, November 17th, 2006 | | 5:59 am |
Ethical Dilemma
Actually, it's not really a dilemma, since I know that I can't really do anything about it, but... I joined a few communities lately and many of the members are really young (under 25) or underage. I read their posts and all I can think is...it's not as bad as all that. Or, it is that bad, but in the end, you'll go on to better things. I just feel so damn old. And because I'm a lot older than most of these girls, I know that anything I could comment would probably fall on deaf ears. And I don't feel like I *should* comment anyway, because some are under 18 - frankly, like it says in the disclaimer, I don't feel like getting sued because some kid did or didn't do something based on something I've written. But if I could comment, I would write this: ( Read more... ) |
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